*This post was originally written on January 14, 2022 Its my birthday. It’s been a tough day. Work in the current state of things has been exhausting. Yesterday, I finished my 10th day of subbing in a row and those anxiety proboking “Is it allergies or is it Covid?” symptoms that keep cycling through were... Continue Reading →
Magical Murmurings
I’ve been deep in it since I woke up this morning—reading about grief, talking about it and writing about it. It’s a griefy time of year for me—turns out that’s true for a lot of people. What I’m learning about this whole body experience is soul soothing and a lot all at once. I was... Continue Reading →
I’ve been deep in it since I woke up this morning—reading about grief, talking about it and writing about it. It’s a griefy time of year for me—turns out that’s true for a lot of people. What I’m learning about this whole body experience is soul soothing and a lot all at once. I was... Continue Reading →
In Good Company with Friends
My dear friend, whose daughter is also a contributor to EMERGENCE, generously gifted me with a hard copy of the book. It prints out so beautifully. I sat in the room full of Christmas lights and quiet after everyone was gone last night and savored the delight of turning pages and revisiting the words and... Continue Reading →
Happy Birthday, Sister. Underneath our Christmas Tree—Always.
Happy Birthday Sweet Sister Sandy, Gone on Ahead
internalluminosity.com/2020/12/24/remembering-spirit/ Mostly for Family, mostly for ritual and certainly for my silly sister who worried that she could be forgotten, I offer this little reading from a year ago when things were a bit stranger and a bit more isolated. Everything often enough still feels so hard and in some ways even harder. But little... Continue Reading →
Responding to the Call to Spontaneous Joy
Traditions can can be tricky. They help us create deeper meaning but they can also set us up for despair—getting ensnared in expectations and chasing emotional experiences from the past. I remember when I first became conscious of this as a young teen and I wondered where that magical feeling I used to have at... Continue Reading →
Letting Go of the Struggle with My Struggle
I’ve been trying to let go of my struggle with the struggle. I know that I am far from alone as all this challenge and uncertainty drags on. Some more cognitive work around this is in the ponder pot. In the meantime, read on to the next post for my emotional take. Maybe it will... Continue Reading →
When Everything Starts To Go Dark Again
“Find your magic.” The message comes printed on holiday kitsch and illustrated on oracle cards shuffled and turned only when a certain sensation moves about your fingertips. But even the sparkle of the little joys you have, for so long, openly received and appreciated has gone hollow filled instead with an ache that pulses and... Continue Reading →
Internal Luminosity 