In the early morning darkness, I awake to the sensation of my dog's warm head resting in the small of my back and take in the little poundings of her heart and her dreamy twitching. I hear the soft rumbles of my other dog's deeply satisfied snoring and reach out to caress his ear. When... Continue Reading →
Tiny Haunted Moments
We anticipate the big events like holidays and anniversaries will be the difficult times when we are working through any kind of grief. And, so, we are sometimes taken off guard by the random moments of visitation. The tiniest of moments can hold the biggest impact...like the familiar fragrance of a hand soap favored by... Continue Reading →
Lessons learned from loss, grief and healing. Holding boundaries, taking responsibility. Light is ever-changing. It can create warmth or be replaced by shadow. It shifts throughout the day, by the day and through the seasons. It has different colors and temperatures and feelings on the skin. Complex and moody it is not always predictable. Light... Continue Reading →
1.20.21 Ruminations
I feel...at home again. I didn't really understand the weight we've all been carrying around until today. I was teaching the lovliest class of ten year olds earlier. They were giving presentations on what they've learned about being gifted, the benefits and challenges of their personal characteristics and the goals they have for maximizing their... Continue Reading →
On My 54th Birthday, Poem To My Sister, Gone On Ahead
When you finally left, all that remained was this gaping hole dead center of my chest. The void was undeniable, but I resisted falling into its depths and almost always kept it covered. Afterall, for eight long years, I’d prepared myself as little bits of you fell away. I released you and I released you... Continue Reading →
You Get Knocked Down and Will Yourself to Rise Again
Wading Deeply in Shallow Waters A long dormant hunger was awakened when we talked into the hushed hours of overnight. Thrilling exchanges about the spot where the mind and body blend, the science of religion, and the multi-faceted nature of stimulation. You built a fire of books and mysteries and kindnesses that made me melt... Continue Reading →
That is Enough for Today
I wrote this in the very first steps of my long grieving and healing journey. I was in what I called my summer womb, my local swimming pool, where I typically would swim for 50-60 minutes and cover one or more miles. I felt drawn to the pool on this day, but I did not... Continue Reading →
Internal Luminosity 