internalluminosity.com/2020/12/24/remembering-spirit/ Mostly for Family, mostly for ritual and certainly for my silly sister who worried that she could be forgotten, I offer this little reading from a year ago when things were a bit stranger and a bit more isolated. Everything often enough still feels so hard and in some ways even harder. But little... Continue Reading →
Responding to the Call to Spontaneous Joy
Traditions can can be tricky. They help us create deeper meaning but they can also set us up for despair—getting ensnared in expectations and chasing emotional experiences from the past. I remember when I first became conscious of this as a young teen and I wondered where that magical feeling I used to have at... Continue Reading →
Letting Go of the Struggle with My Struggle
I’ve been trying to let go of my struggle with the struggle. I know that I am far from alone as all this challenge and uncertainty drags on. Some more cognitive work around this is in the ponder pot. In the meantime, read on to the next post for my emotional take. Maybe it will... Continue Reading →
When Everything Starts To Go Dark Again
“Find your magic.” The message comes printed on holiday kitsch and illustrated on oracle cards shuffled and turned only when a certain sensation moves about your fingertips. But even the sparkle of the little joys you have, for so long, openly received and appreciated has gone hollow filled instead with an ache that pulses and... Continue Reading →
Joy Overcomes Rules
Sometimes you’ve just got to let go of some of your rules (no Christmas before Thanksgiving, don’t turn to stuff for happiness…). Mom just loves Christmas (she has no Christmas boundaries!), and I got her a new twinkly white tree last weekend. She spent the next few days fluffing it up and adding some ornaments,... Continue Reading →
I Wish I Was the Moon Tonight, too, Neko
After a pretty funky weekend, The Museum of the Moon at ODU’s Moon Festival was the perfect soul balm. I felt like I was in the party I imagine to be happening on the full moon where doggy Roxy and Sister Sandy are listening to music and enjoying delectable treats out in a moon lit... Continue Reading →
This is Who I Am Right Now.
One of the hardest things I’ve had to learn is that nothing in life is guaranteed. You can try to control and prepare and be very, very good, but you still don’t get to control the outcome. Waiting for the ideal anything (financial grounding, body, partner, schedule) is also riddled with pitfalls. I’m not saying... Continue Reading →
Emergence
I’m so excited to share with you this co-creative year-long labor of love. For me, it was a weaving together of a lifetime of contemplation, self-discovery and self-reflection. From the first poem I wrote in Mrs. Bridger’s Field Lighthouse class in the third grade, through many years of personal struggle around identity and finding a... Continue Reading →
It’s almost here…
I’m so excited that this year-long labor of love is about to be delivered. It feels a little like magic and a lot like healing. I think it’s going to be a really important contribution to to demystifying the gifted feminine in a way that just might lead to some blossoming. I’ll let you know... Continue Reading →
Internal Luminosity 